I hate the snow




This is my first visit to Western Nebraska since October 2004.  I’ve seen my Parents and sister Ashley several times over the years, either meeting in Wichita or they came to see me.  It was hard to get away while I was in school, and harder to travel with three boys.

I’ve been blessed with a job that I am now able to take off for a week and really not miss work, so of course I decided that spring break would be a good time to go visit.

Since my separation and pending divorce, people have asked me several times if I am going to move back home.  I don’t know, and still don’t know.

As I was leaving Hot Springs, and driving up highway 270, I found a peacefulness in the hills and curvy roads, they endless trees and small towns.   I thought, this is my home now.

I love living in Hot Springs.  I love my house.  There are 4 houses on our street, the three on the lake and mine.  It’s small, needs some work, but I love it.  The boys can play outside and for the most part don’t have to worry about traffic.  But believe me, those that speed down my road get an earful from me.  The landscapers and other service people for the homes at the end of the road know not to race down our road.  One of the homes at the end have security come through several times a day.  We have a great spot on the lake for our boat, a dock we can go hang out on.

The boys love their school.  We were blessed to be able to get an affordable home in one of the best school districts around.  The teachers and staff have been wonderful in all aspects of Brennens and Zacharys time there.    Go RAMS!

I love my job.  I’ve been around enough to know that no matter where you work, there will be bad things and good things.   There will be great people and bad people to work with.  You just need to know how to deal with them.  Thankfully in all my years of  management training and advance training, I learned how to deal with people and not let it bother me.  I am blessed to have a job, where I only work 2 days a week and can support my family.   I also am able to pick up extra shifts if I need to.  I float in the hospital, so I am able to learn many things and advance all my skills.  I really truly love it.  And most of the time, I really enjoy everyone I work with, they all have great aspects to them.  Most important, I have made wonderful friends there who have been so supportive to me during the last year.  Heather, Karen, LindsEy, Francesca, Heather, Wendy, Carissa, Megan, and many others.  I love you all!

I love the seasons in Hot Springs.  I don’t care for the winter, it’s cold and gray.  But the rest of the year is fantastic!  I love the lake, it’s so beautiful.  We are blessed with wonderful scenery.  I know there are many places I have not seen, and intend to visit many this summer.

I’ve learned that I feel good after I workout, and have started to enjoy running.  Granted, I can’t go very far without my legs and lungs feeling like they are on fire.  But we are working on that.  I’m going to buy a bike and a bike rack here soon, so the boys and I can take advantage of the many biking areas.

Scottsbluff.  It’s a great place to raise young kids.  A small close knit town.  As I drove through, I noticed not much has changed.  Many of the businesses have the same signage they did years ago.  Some buildings have a fresh coat of paint, or have been changed into a totally different business.  But it’s all the same.  The speed limit on all the roads is 25 mph.  Yes, that kills me.

It’s been wonderful to see my family.  I haven’t seen Stephanie or Josh since 2004.  Stephanie is still with her boyfriend Doyle, who I only spoke with once years ago, to chew his ass out for dating my sister.  We’ve made amends, and I see that my sister is happy and he takes good care of her.  That’s all I care about.  They are expecting a baby boy in May.  I’m so excited for them!

Josh is still Josh.  Works for my Dad.  We have had a great time together.  I don’t think he realized how cool his big Sis was!   He is great with the boys, and they absolutely love him!  He has two dogs, Cashmere and Domino, that he has trained like little children.  It’s too cute!

Ashley, well is Ashley.  She is loud like me, sarcastic like me, and a goof like me.  How is the world handling two of us?  She is still in school and still dating Chris, who adores her.  The WNCC Cougars didn’t make it to the basketball finals this year.  Hopefully she’ll get to go next year!

My Mom and Dad are still the same.  I love them both and they have been so supportive of me.

The boys cry for their Dad at night.  When we are at home, they ask for their Dad during the week and I can drive them over to his work so see him.  They don’t understand how far away we are from him and we can’t just drive over to see him.  That’s been hard for me here.  I don’t want to deprive them of anything, much less their Dad.

I won’t make an official decision on moving until closer to the end of my divorce.  I need to focus on my Kids right now.  But there are many things and people that I truly love in Arkansas that I’d miss dearly, and that really makes my choices hard.

Time will tell.


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