It’s HUMP day!
I’m having a bad morning so far. And a not so great last week or so. Darren and I are no longer seeing one another, on his request. It really hurt my feelings, more than I expected. So I’ve been dealing with that. I’m really tired of being hurt. Tired of putting myself out there and being shut down. Really tired of it.
I’ve had the boys all day, pretty much everyday, which has been hard. They are constantly in my things. I have a cedar chest my uncle made me for high school graduation, and they got into it and made a mess. It’s full of stuff from my childhood, high school, the boys’ baby stuff. Lots of my little trinkets and stuff are torn up. It’s silly I know, but those things are a part of me, and it really made me mad.
I really don’t have much to say, I’m trying to stay out of a funk/depression type mood, but it’s hard. I’ve been out to run a few times, which helps, mainly because I focus on not getting hit by cars rather than all the other things in my life.
Last night I posted a bunch of old pics from church camps and youth rallies from the 1990s (on facebook), and it was fun laughing at them and our clothing attire with old friends.
I have a $250 water bill! ACK! Which mine is normally around $40. And even during this month period, we were camping for a week! So the water peeps are coming out to see if there is a leak, and if so, I have to pay to fix it. So I either have to fix a leak, or pay the bill. Nice, real nice.
I still have to get a new lawn mower, I now officially live in a jungle. UGH.
Maybe I really should move out of this house and let him have it. Every month I keep having to put money out for stuff. And I have an entire list of things that need to be done (weatherstripping on the door, paint, etc), but can’t afford to do it because I’m having to get a new water heater, or a lawn mower. UGH.
Mike is coming to get the boys, so I actually get a “day” off. Wow. I’m going to see my dear friend Chastity, who was in a bad accident, spent a few days in ICU. She has a long road to recovery still. Please pray for her and her family. Heather and I are going to Target and who knows what tonight.
I’m wanting to take the boys to the beach in August, before school starts. I’ve been looking at places to stay in gulf shores, destin, etc. Any suggestions?
I’m off to try to make my day better! I forsee it starting with a starbucks!